Tired as a mother fucker

So first and formost, I would like to thank KENJI and JESSICA sooooo much for helping me move on Tuesday! I couldnt have done it without you guys, thanks sooo much! You guys made it alot of fun.That day was bad enough for me though. I was tired, most of my stuff wasnt there, my camera ate my film that I spent the last of my money on, and it was fucking hot. Not to mention my knees were already shot and out before that. That night, I had to go through ALL my stuff cause we were supposed to take the rest to my dads storage and to goodwill. BUT WE DIDNT. I didnt sleep for 2 damn days! Boy was I tired. Then matt spent the night, and we had a good time. He FINALLY started to help me clean and fold clothes, so I was happy. I also had killer cramps from hell, and he was so helpful. He said he wanted to make sure I was ok before we went to bed, and he just hugged me for along time. He also massaged my tummy ;)Tonight, we started to put up my shelves and are going to finish tommarow. Then go BIRTHDAY SHOPPING FOR ME!!! YEAH!!! BIG 21!!! LOL...But matt and I had a good 2 days together. We played Nintendo, and he said it was the first time he has seen me play video games. He looked at my old photo-albums, but then he got upset. He said I was a spoiled brat cause I went to dances (err banquets I guess...). Honestly, I think he was mad cause there was lots of pictures of me and 'the ex". He said I looked happy in all those pictures, and that Im not now. Which isnt the case at all, and I hope he realizes that.He is on his way over right now, piss drunk of course. He was all "BABY, YOUR THE ONLY ONE FOR ME" while all I hear is like girls in the background gigling. And so I asked him about his little "fan club" behind him, and he was like "No theres only 30 or so gilrs". WTF..ya...So he kept asking to come over and I said no, and he was like "Im going to show up anyway, and I will sleep on the porch then" and all this other crazy stuff. It was funny though. I am kinda sad. I always pictured my 21st bithday with all my friends and stuff. We are going to the beach on my birthday, WEDNESDAY THE 23rd, and I know its the middle of the week, but I really wanted to go then. No one can go. I understand, people will beout of town, they work. BUT I am still bummed out alot. I always picture it to be so awesome. The fact that I am freaking out about turning 21 isnt helping either. I dont know why I am, but I am. Oh well I guess.I need sleep! See what drug you are.Oh Kelli came over tonight to give me my bday present! First off, the bag was sooo cute! Then there was more! It was butterfly tattoos, a "Kiss me its my birthday" button (lips) and a HELLA cute skirt that I am planning on wearing on my birthday! She is going to be out of town :( but it meant alot to me that she came by. I was already upset (I found pics of my dead dog and was totally balling b4 she got here) and I miss her alot. I wish we oculdve spent more time together, but hopefully soon we will!Flint and Pollit came to. Flint barely talked to me, so I dont know what that was about. Pollit was saying he wanted to buy me a shot for my birthday, lol. He is so cute.Well Im off to bed, as soon as drunk Mc drunks alot gets here....