Damn right, its better than yours!

Haha, yes a new lay-out AGAIN. Im still experiamenting, so bear with me. God its 5am. I am on dial-up, and its slow as a mother fucker using viagra. Again, its 5am, and bear with my lame jokes. Im at the point where EVERYTHING and ANYTHING is funny. Like that milkshake song. LOL...So I FINALLY saw Saved!. It was sooo funny. It reminded me of the old Alma Mata, or however the hell you say that. My old schools. Yes, I went to private schools. Annoying as hell. LOL. Today I got up and cooked Matty a "hungrey bear" breakfast. I made chocolate chip pancakes, cheese eggs, and orange juice. I put strawberries and wipped cream all around the plate, and then sprinkled powdered sugar on them. I also made him a little bear pancake (not so easy!). Then I lit these heart candles I made. Haha. It was our 3 month aniversary, dumb I know, but I wanted to do something special. I think he liked it. He thought I was a dork though. I think I am getting carpotunnel symdrome, my hand hella hurts. Anyway, then we watched "Splash" (yes again), and cuddled. Then he had to go to work since he is working a lock-down tonight (12am-8am). I hope he is having fun. He wanted me to go, but I didnt want to. Now I wish I did, cause I miss my boy! :(Then I went to my neighbors for dinner, and christian and Autum came. So that was fun. I had a few drinks, and that was also fun. I wish I had some drinks right now. LOL j/k....So ya. Im going to call my BF now so I can go to bed and hopefully go shopping tomarrow. Byes!"My milshake brings all the boys to the yard, and they're like 'its better than yours' damn right, its better than yours. I could teach you, but I'd have to charge"

Birthday pics!

Here are some pics (courtesy of Jess http://img78.photobucket.com/albums/v257/luachmhar/) from my birthday! Mine will be up soon! but check out her photbucket, and mine too!http://img78.photobucket.com/albums/v240/lullabye/Enjoy!This is a group pic Left to right : Matt, Ken, Jess, Flint, Michelle, and Chris.This is me and Ken with a frothy beer! Mmmmm!

steamy mad

I swear to god! Im seeing saved! tommarow!!Anyone want to come?

Happy 21st to me!

Haha, so yesterday was my birthday. I guess it almost didnt happen. Anita was pissed off at me, I never found out why. She has been in bed all day (what a shock!) And no one is talking to me. WHATEVER. I NEED to move out.ANYWAYSo Dweeze came over the night before. I was crying for various reasons, and he cheered me up alot. He slept in my room (oh no, scandelous! somebody better tell on me!) And that was cool I guess. I woke up to my dad like yelling at me to get up, maybe he wasnt too happy to see Matt in my room, but nothing was ever said to me.So anyway, too make a long story short...Michelle, Jess, Chris, Kenji, Matt, Jeff and Samantha, and Flint all went to the beach. Oh and my fam did too.It was fun. Jess got tipsy and that was relaly funny. At one point she was screaming about "why is there all these rocks at the beach! And sand? Whats with that!?" LOL...Michelle and Chris seemed to get along, and that was really cute ;)We had a day of drinking and bar bqing. And we had cake. Oh ya, I rode all the way past petaluma (to Tamales) with a cake on my lap. Nothing happened to it. Then Jeff stepped on it! I thought I was gonna cry! *sniff sniff* But it was cool. At least he didnt mess up the "Happy Birthday" on it.So then we all climed the huge ass rocks (more like cliffs) to go to "Star Fish City". There was only like 4, very usual. But it was cool. The tide was already in, and I didnt feel like going over the rocks again. So I took my skirt off, and said I would see everyone later. I went into the ocean (eevn with my little rose crown on that anita made for me) and was almost killed my the damn waves hitting me against the rocks. Then I came out and I was swiming in the ocean, and that was fun. This black guy was fishing and he was all "WOW I caught a merrr-maid!" LOL. Then these 12 year old boys said something about me being on bay watch or whatever. LOL.So that was fun.I Got alot of cool stuff, and good memories. ;)Oh and one of my fave movies "Splash" Matt bought for me :) He also got me some bracelets, a hat, and comics. Teehee!Ok well I am tired now ;)

Good news for people who love bad news...

Cookie Generator by HuttaThat pretty much sums up how I am feeling at this moment.

B is for.....

Bitch.Ok so I was a bitch today. I dont even know why. I dont know whats wrong lately.It just seems like the closer my birthday gets, the more emotional and bitchy I become. I feel fat, I feel old. I feel like I havent accoplished anything in my life.Its like a mid-life crisis, at 20 years old. Soon to be 21 I guess you could say.Yes, Im a Cancer, very emotional and all that fancy ass talk. But come on, this much?I dont understand it. I look in the mirror, and I cry. I feel like I cannot fit into anything. But the fact is, I AM losing weight. In reality, I dont weight that much. And I have never cared THIS much about my weight. Or my looks. I shouldnt. I dont care. But I do I guess, since I am so upset.I yelled at Matt all day, and yes, I feel bad. But at the same time, he said he would go with me to Devina's "going away" bar bq thingy. I am nervous. I want to go, I want to say "goodbye" to her. I even made her a little shitty thing. But at the same time, I am nervous around all "those" people now. We arent friends. I feel like I am a tag-a-long, even though I was invited. But back to Matt. He said he never said that and didnt want to go, so I said I would stay home and we could do something. Then he said fine. Then claimed he didnt say that. He had to go "practive for C.S." WTF. ya ok. I do understand. I just feel like he only sleeps here, and, uh, "other activities" here, and that all. I know its not like that. But I feel like I cannot be all cute with him, and want him here unless he feels the same at that moement.So he left, and I didnt really know he was leaving. So I call him on my dads cell, and we argued, and it tirned into me saying I didnt want him to come to my birthday.Which leads me to this.I dont even feel like I am having one. I dont mean to sound like a brat, but it is a big birthday for me. It just seems like no one cares. I know some do, like Jess, and I am sure Michelle, and probably Matt, but I dont know.Well Jess is here so I got to run!

I hate communities

So Ive been struggling trying to make a damn community on this stupid site.Cookie Generator by HuttaTHATS WEIRD! I KNOW A JESS!!! hahahaha