Double Date Disaster!!!

Hahaha, ok not really, I just liked how it sounded for some reason!SO this weekend has been a busy one!On friday, Jess, Matt, Chris, Steve Roe, and I went to the IRF show in antioch. It was a bit weird at first, but I enjoyed it. Chris got into it, and was moshing lol. It was good because Jess and I got to see Jordon, who is moving soon, and Davina too. Jess said this kid kept looking at me, and then she said it was "Little Grant" (aka corys little bro casey) and it was! He is 17 now lol..he is so cute. We spent some time chatting, and then he asked how old I was now, and I said "almost 21" and he goes "WOW, THAT OLD?"....I felt like an old woman! *cry cry* but it was good to see him all grown up!Then we all (Gordo, Stephen, Shalina, Shannon, Davina, Joel, Jess Mark, Chris, Steve, John (the new drummer) and Jarrod) went to Zull a lu lus, haha I cant remeber its name, "the old andys" and ate. Chip met us there. Then Flint was dropped off. Everyone asked where Kelli was, and I didnt know she was there, and Flint said she was in the car. Then IRF and Davina and, ok everyone, told me to tell her to come in, but she was gone :(Then we all went home.The next day, Jess and Mark invited Matt and I to go see "Saved". But it was sold out :( So then the guys were being dicks and wouldnt see "Stetford Wives". All they wanted to see was that STUPID Vin Disel movie. Ok so I said I would go see it, it doesnt look bad, but I didnt want to see it last night. So we all, well, Jess and I Vs. the boys, argued.So then we went to Blockbuster to rent a movie. More arguments. Jess and I wanted to get a comedy, and they wanted "Mystic River" WTF, no no no!!! LOL...its was a very "Mystic" kinda night.So after some more arguning, Jess and I WON! <---- hahaha...and we got "Waynes World". So we went to safeway and got some treats, and then watched it at Marks house. Then we had fun once everything was going, and I had alot of fun. Mark and Matt seem like they like each other, and that is cool.Maybe next time there will be no arguing! LOL...Then we (matt and I) went home.Today I got up and worked around the house. I moved the books, dusted, vacumed, painted my shelves (hot pink with white stars on them!), and moved a bunch of shit, like I have been doing all weekend. I am so tired, but I have alot more to do.Tomarrow I guess I am going to my dads storage to clean it a bit so I can fit my stuff I dont need right now in it. Then back to clean my room. Then on tuesday I am going to get my stuff! I am excited, even though I know alot of it isnt there, and its more work, but I am still excited.Jess just said that she isnt going to move in with Erin anymore, and asked me too!!!!!! I am majorly excited! LOLWe are gonna look for prolly a cheap lil house to rent, and look for some roomies.I figure my mid-summre, or end of summer we can get all are shit together and such. Even if she regesiters for school and we havent found something, Im sure she could stay here when she needed to and all. But we will find something!So now I just have to work on getting that car sold too!!!You are the Blue Angel. You have powers over allwater. Any place by a body of water is yourhome because the gentle sounds calm you.You're a leader among all and you would neverstear anyone wrong. Sure your moods may changelike the temperment of the sea, but no one'sperfect. Which Angel are you? brought to you by Quizilla

If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad?

SO my bf doesnt want to be around me. When I want to hangout, its either "Your to clingy", or "You are sick" and my favorite "Im playing video games"/"Im going to the bar".But when he wants to hangout, theres nothing said like that. Im not even fucking sick. That just pisses me off. He wants space, then he will get it. Everytime I find myself being truly happy, it all gets ruined. I was so happy that we had a good day the other day. And I thought (since he mentioned it earlier) that we could watch a movie, and Chris could come, and I could show them some old pics and stuff I got out of storage.And thats another thing, I have to get my stuff out by next wednesday, and that means I am going to be super busy, too busy to have a nice time with him. And I dunno. I know I am overly emotional right now, with having to get my stuff, missing some of my friends, and having to turn 21 (I dunno it feels weird to me). But just to know he is there helped. But not when I hear that he doesnt want to hangout. Yes he is "tired" but is he really going to go home? NO.SO yes, of course my feelings are hurt. If it was the other way around, hed be the same way. So maybe we will see how that goes then....my boy is the fully clothed one ;)

Oh ya...

I forgot part of staurday. Chris came over and took Matt and I to the "Thought Crime" show in berkeley. It was their last show as a bad, but they are starting a new one, and Chris might join. It was a fun time. I met the drummer, and he was a cool guy. Oh ya before that though, I was having a bad day, and Matt and Chris were going to Togos, but I didnt want to go. And since Matt always has bad luck, Togos was closed. So I guess they went to Mels, and Matt brought home a pink balloon for me :) I thought that was cute. Haha when he cleaned the room for me, he even took of the days of the calender. HAHA I thought it was great Jess and I hungout on monday, and that was fun. She showed me how to develope film this time at the Darkroom. I have alot of fun with her, and I am glad we geta long. I wish mark would hangout more, then him and matt could hangout and it would be cool. Yesterday I went to the storage unit (which is down the street from the darkroom...who knew!?) and I was really upset. Not only was my bed not there, bu all my Disney art (which is worth $1000, yes $1000 of dollars) was missing too. And my record player. And my Buddy Holly record. We all know who took that. (oh my asshole brother who doesnt talk to me either....how long story, mostly about money and greed.) So I was kinda upset about that.But they accidently gave me a box of records that werent mine, and turns out they are really rare, so HAHA. I talked to Justin's friend "Pokey" (Erynn) online. She is really nice. If only things between me and Justin we a bit better, maybe I could meet her when she comes to visit. I mean, were cool, yes, but who knows now that he is back. Things are always messed up in that area. Just, if he wouldnt screw me over like in the past, and I wouldnt be a bitch back, then it would be fine. I dunno. I sent him an email, but it says he hasnt checked it. Oh well.Well now I am going to go tan.Byes!

shake it like a polaroid picture!

So last night, matty spent the night and that was fun. Chris was going to stay but he went out with doug to drink and find some chickitas! Tee hee...We started to watch tv, but we both fell asleep. I woke up around 3, or 3:30 and went to bed in my room. When I woke up this morning, I went and laid down with him. Then we went to my room and, slept, and just hungout. We had a pretty good day, only argued once. That was because I just got really annoyed at him when he was on the phone when I was trying to clean. Its like, he didnt even ask if I needed help. But then he cleaned my room for me, and he even changed the day on both my calenders, and I thought that was very cute ;) Then we went to Togos, and we ran into little Greg, haha. Then Jess came over and we took matt to work since he had to work tonight. Then Jess and I went to the darkroom again. The guy who worked there tonight was hecka cool. LOL. It was really fun and intresting. She showed me how to develop film this time. She said I should give it a try soon. I know I will be terriable, but I guess I should experemint some time. Then I came home. I guess about an hour before I came home, the dog was barking and anita ran out side and someone was messing around in our front yard and my dad ran outside and they ran into a car and drove away. CREEPY...Now I am hella freaked out.So tommarow I get to got to the storage unit to check out my stuff...hopefully its all in one, and all there!Well Im kinda scared right now, so I am going to bed.You're a Diamond. You seem like a cold and anunreachable person outside, yet you arebeautiful inside and outside. You may bestubborn at times. You act with grace andelegance and you are a precious asset to allyour friends. What Jewel Are You? brought to you by Quizillahere is a pic of me and jess, haha...

shake it like a polaroid picture!

So last night, matty spent the night and that was fun. Chris was going to stay but he went out with doug to drink and find some chickitas! Tee hee...We started to watch tv, but we both fell asleep. I woke up around 3, or 3:30 and went to bed in my room. When I woke up this morning, I went and laid down with him. Then we went to my room and, slept, and just hungout. We had a pretty good day, only argued once. That was because I just got really annoyed at him when he was on the phone when I was trying to clean. Its like, he didnt even ask if I needed help. But then he cleaned my room for me, and he even changed the day on both my calenders, and I thought that was very cute ;) Then we went to Togos, and we ran into little Greg, haha. Then Jess came over and we took matt to work since he had to work tonight. Then Jess and I went to the darkroom again. The guy who worked there tonight was hecka cool. LOL. It was really fun and intresting. She showed me how to develop film this time. She said I should give it a try soon. I know I will be terriable, but I guess I should experemint some time. Then I came home. I guess about an hour before I came home, the dog was barking and anita ran out side and someone was messing around in our front yard and my dad ran outside and they ran into a car and drove away. CREEPY...Now I am hella freaked out.So tommarow I get to got to the storage unit to check out my stuff...hopefully its all in one, and all there!Well Im kinda scared right now, so I am going to bed.You're a Diamond. You seem like a cold and anunreachable person outside, yet you arebeautiful inside and outside. You may bestubborn at times. You act with grace andelegance and you are a precious asset to allyour friends. What Jewel Are You? brought to you by Quizillahere is a pic of me and jess, haha...

Albums...ehh sorta

Ok so for now, I have some really crappy online photo-albums. SO check them out. Not the best quality either... but what you gonna do?http://img78.photobucket.com/albums/v240/lullabye/

like a picture...

So I took a few rolls of film to be developed at Walmart. Somehow, I mixed up the rolss and instead of the beach pictures, it was pictures from january! I was so pissed. But its ok, cause they were pics of me and Kels. I miss her. Anyway, the other roll was from Jess's party, and those came out good. Then there was some of nick and erin. There was one I took of Darla that I really liked. She was swiming in the pool, but brodie jumped in last minute in the corner of the pic :( Oh well. The other 3 rolls, they cant find. They said when they do, they will be free. "When?" Dont they mean "If?"